It’s 11:30 pm. I’ve been wanting to sleep since I got up this morning. It’s also shift change. A brand new, wide awake nurse comes in to introduce herself, tell us what the rest of the night holds, and to check vitals on my son. I push aside the desire to pretend I’m asleep aside. I listen to her story. I make eye contact. I thank her for keeping the night watch. I put her first.
It’s 3 am. My son needs me. So I get up. I help. I comfort. Ignoring the fact that he is my son, he hasn’t done anything to deserve it. Of course, he hasn’t done anything to not deserve it. I put him first.
It’s 4 am. The nurse comes in to check my son’s vitals. My body says roll over. My mind screams, why check vitals in the middle of the oh-dark-thirty morning? So I get up. I help. I engage. I put her first.
I share this with you, not for human praise. I don’t want it. I am not perfect. Far, far from it.
I choose to live out my discipleship by serving. Jesus served me when he put me first, when he went to the cross.
I lie back down, I utter a prayer, “thank you Jesus, for making me first in your life.”
I fall asleep knowing that I am loved, and that is why I love. I fall asleep knowing that God’s comfort for me is found in Him and that is why I comfort others. I fall asleep being held by serving hands that have served me many times over, and that is why I serve.
To many my words may seem trite. To others, too touchy/feely. But the disciple-who has come to the part in the journey of “being” with the Trinity, understands that the “being” informs the “doing.”
Left to our own motivation, if it were up to my good intentions, serving would happen when it was/is convenient.
In a world distracted by Satan with busyness, servanthood becomes optional. In this world the servanthood of discipleship becomes something we can do if it is easy, fun, low commitment and is convenient to our schedule.
Jesus does not call us to a convenient discipleship.
If a journey of comfort [as the world defines it] is what you seek, then do not follow Jesus.
If serving others is an option for you to choose, you do not follow Jesus.
Jesus is not interested in fitting into our schedule. Jesus is the schedule. His kingdom come, His will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.
Rick Warren is fond of saying that “God is more interested in your character than in your comfort.” There is truth there.
A cursory reading of the Bible finds that the people God chooses to use, are rarely called to a life of comfort and convenience.
By following Jesus, will you know comfort? Yes. Will the comfort our Rabbi grants to us match the worldly definition of comfort? Most likely not.
By following Jesus, will it be convenient? Not unless we learn to “be” in Christ on the journey.
If you are interested in being just a good person, by all means, please continue to occasionally don the towel of servanthood, when you feel like it and it is convenient.
If you are, if I am, interested in being a disciple of Jesus, being covered in the dust of our Rabbi, then servanthood is a way of living out our “doing” because our character has been shaped by the time spent “being” served by our loving Lord.